“The Sun will rise and set regardless.
What we choose to do with the light while it’s here is up to us.
“I don’t know?”
This is our families theme this Fall.
Today was the first day of the big kids heading back to co-op…I can’t get over how old they are now.
When does this happen? How? Why? Must it?
So why the “I don’t know?”
There are just so many unknown’s for us right now. You guys may remember that almost two years ago now Daryl was laid off. It was horrid..no fun and absolutely that point in life where you are just saying “Why us?”
The answer of course was two things…
2) Why not us? What makes us so special that bad things can’t happen…nothing. Bad things happen to everyone. It’s called “life”.
But something fantastic came out of all of that mess.
Daryl switched up careers from “being the creative” to managing the creatives. The end result?
His career has exploded and turns out…he is extremely good at this new path.
He was hired on with Capitol One and hasn’t complained, not one single day, once. Ever.
He LOVES it there! We all couldn’t be happier for him and proud of all he has accomplished these last few years.
On the other side of that coin?
He is based out of Washington D.C. , a good distance from Richmond. Let’s just say in the last 14 days he was out of town for 6 of them.
We miss him. The “I don’t know…” on this one is…should we make the move up there so he gets to sleep in his own bed at night? Or stay here and keep this crazy commute up? Would we sell our house or rent it out? What would a move up there look like?
Hmmm….I have no immediate answers. Just an “I don’t know?”
And a “I miss my best friend at home every night.”
Then there is of course the school end of the “I don’t know?”
The kids have officially gotten to the high school subjects and grades. Haley is a social butterfly and Adam is a lover of all things learning.
I simply can not teach subjects like Physics, Chemistry etc… If nothing else I know that this year is probably the last year of full time homeschooling.
Whether they start going to regular school as part time or full time next year is the question currently in the house.
Public or private? What grade levels? Heck they are all over the place on that one.
Haley has subjects in 7th, 8th AND 9th this year…Adam has mostly 9th but Spanish and writing are in the 7th-8th grade co-op class (the ages are merged).
Homeschooling is like that. You simply “are where you are”.
Need longer on a subject? Take longer.
Get the concept on the first try and become bored? Jump onto the next thing.
That has been the reason why we have loved it so much all these years!
If they had stayed in regular school Haley would be going into the 6th and Adam into the 8th. They are clearly going to have to be tested at the end of this year by the school system before they head back because when asked “what grade are they?” my answer will be…
“I don’t know.”
The good news is that they are in no way “behind” at this point.
Socially, I am not going to lie about it though or leave out this part….half the reason they are now both thinking they may want to go back is the social part.
Let’s face it…homeschooling is much easier for elementary years. Finding support groups, field trips and things geared towards homeschooled elementary kiddos is pretty easy around here. Late middle and high school years so many of their friends are going back that there just aren’t the social outings and opportunities for teens.
In all honesty I am burnt out.
Not on teaching them, or being with them most of the time. That part I don’t mind at all…I truly enjoy my kids. They are amazing young people.
I am burnt out on the “hunting” for social opportunities for teens.
Jill and I were talking about it the other day. Did our mothers ever even have a conversation when we were in high school? Did they have to talk to each other and be bff’s in order for us to have sleep overs? (we met our freshman year) We are pretty sure the answer is a “no”. I think they probably gabbed at some point over the many years but Jill and I were the coordinators.
As teenagers we were in charge of our social scene for the most part. Our friends, while parents may have guided us, were chosen by us. We planned our sleepovers and mall dates not our mothers (because Jill and I would spend HOURS at the mall…doing nothing.) We had tons of opportunities to meet other teens and make new friends. Strangely enough I am still close to several of my girlfriends from high school. Rare I know…but they were gold. I got lucky.
The long and the short of it has to be that the point is coming that we probably fit better in regular school system.
We have never homeschooled for any reason other than it simply fit our needs as a family and we fell into it and had a blast!
We have never “sheltered” them from the world and have gone out of our way to make homeschooling less about home and more about seeing the world around them…outside of a classroom. It has been great.
So the question we ask ourselves alot these days?
Is this our last year of homeschooling????? If I could find those teen outings and resources for the social end would we stick with it? Is regular school the answer? Would part time (in Va public schools they can take 2-3 subjects and be a part time student in the upper grades) or full time? Will there be co-op’s in northern Va that could fill the needs like we have down here? What do we need to be working on to prep them in case they head back?
Will Lucas go to regular school or homeschool? Probably at least regular Kindergarten…private or public?
You guessed it… a whole lot of “I don’t know?”… like mind spinning amounts of “no clue”.
I can say for sure that I am thankful that we have the options. Options are lovely and many have none. We are blessed.
Little Lucas…big man turns three next week. How did this happen?
Preschool? Well we were going to send him this year BUT ended up with the older two BOTH in braces. Sorry Lucas…braces first…preschool after.
Until then we have “mommy school” and he loves it.
If I had all the money in the world he would be in a Montessori school somewhere…because I love Montessori.
But until that moment arrives we will have a ball and enjoy his “mommy school”.
Will he go to preschool next year?
“I don’t know.”
So in summary….
God gifted me with something.
A propensity to “roll with it”...I am NOT a high anxiety type of gal. If I were I would be a mess. ”Laid back” is my middle name…for realz.
All this is really no big deal.
The unknown simply isn’t something I fear right now. I know that most of what happens in life is really out of my control…how I handle it all is in my control.
I shall smile….enjoy my time in Richmond and with my kiddos this year. When and if the time comes for all this impending change we will handle it. It will happen the way it is supposed to and however it plays out will not be the end of the world.
I know we will all be just fine with our changes as long as we are together.
I once asked a friend why they were moving to a “bad part of town”…I fell in love with her answer.
“A ‘home’ is exactly where you make it. Where you are loved and where you can be together. It’s really not a place.”
Attitude is always 90% of any inner voice battles…or maybe I am the only one with a crazy babbling inner voice?
I don’t know….BAHAHAHAHA…get it?
Ok…time to take Haley to Volleyball and stop babbling and making stupid jokes.
Hope everyone has had a great start to their school year! Whatever “school” looks like for your family
The time goes by far too fast!